"I love you (I love you)
Don't leave (I'm sorry)
Without you, I (Without me, you)
I am nothing (Will be okay)
I love you (I love you)
Please don't do this to me
How can you just leave me like this"
Feels like something's wrong
When i walked trough the corridor, i felt something that i never felt before. Something bad. I kept walking through. Feels like i'm flying. My step was too light for me. Then i opened the door. And i looked at her. She looked sad. Wind made her hair flew beautifully. She looked at me, maybe she looked at me. I wasn't so sure. Her glaze was empty. Feels like she saw nothing.
Feels like I'm gone
I faced her. I didn't know what's wrong with us. She didn't even look at me. I asked my self what's wrong with me. I thought maybe i did wrong. Maybe that's why she didn't want to see me. Maybe she could treat me like this but please don't leave. Please don't act like i'm nothing.
Because I know within a second by just looking at her expression. I wanted to push the moment away.
Feels like she forgot about me
I looked at the piano she used to play. The piano we used to play. Then i looked at the painting with stain of teardrops. When i touched it, the stain were gone. Actually i knew there's something wrong with me but i acted like I didn't know. I refused to know. She held on a broken eyeglasses. Eyeglasses that i used to wear and i didn't know why was my eyeglasses broken like that? She flipped it and put it on the suitcase.
Why is she doing that?
She acted very weird. She walked very slowly and looked tired and weak. She saw my picture in a broken frame. What was happening to me? This is totally not right. It was like a puzzle to me. I had to find the right pieces of my memory and put it together to find the answer. Cause no matter how often i ask what's wrong with me, nothing answered. No matter how hard I scream it, her ears don't hear it. She stopped talking, even if my heart speaks to her. It kept repeating the same words. Even if God told me to stop.
God is my witness
This room was different. Now full with pain, sadness, and coldness. Where was our happiness? Was it gone? Now she sat on a chair, i did the same. I accompanied her. Even with that sad face, she still looked so beautiful. She kept looking at my broken framed picture. A glass of water beside her fell down and made her foot wet. She gave no respond. I knew she lost her awareness. I grabbed her hand and slowly caressed it while i was looking at her gloomy face. She pulled her hand away from me and left me alone with wet step.
Now i know what's happening
When she refused me, i knew i was invisible.
"The end is coming, the last of it is here
The tears that I must get used to are beginning to flow
Words that I used only for you
But they're all useless now"
I took the broken framed picture of mine and i remembered that i was already gone. When i took my light steps, i was already erased hers. Then i realized i'm not a human anymore.
She weakly kneed in front of me with tears fell down on her face. She was about to suicide. Her glass of water fell and her pills spilled out. She took her glass but i stopped her. I didn't want her to chase me. I didn't want to see her die in front of me even though we'd be last forever if she did that. I grabbed her hand and i let those pills fell down from her grab. It might killed her and it might killed me for the second time.
Love is leaving, my love is leaving me
I wanted to fix her. Just like i did to her steps. So i erased her tears, and when i did that, my broken framed picture fixed. I know she couldn't feel me, but it's okay. She was the one and only love for me so it's okay. And for her i cried. No matter how hard the tears flew, I didn't feel embarrassment at all. Cause i loved her. I repeated the same words. I loved her.
Now she's fine without me
After i found out what happened with me, i thought it's time to go home. It's time to face The Lord. Now i don't have any unfinished business at all. I'm all free now. I spread my wings and i fly. I'm leaving. The end is coming.
"I love you (I'm sorry, don't hold me back)
I love you (Even without me)
Without you, I'm (I hope you're happy)
It's nothing
I'm sorry (I love you)
Please meet a nice guy
Forget how bad I was to you
I love you, I love you"
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