Y MV (MBLAQ) Story [my version]

I want to clean my self from my own sin.

I drove my car with speed without knowing where to go. I just wanted to escape my self from reality. The letter i wrote before, the warm hugs i gave to her, a thousand of smiles that i made for her, i just cried for it and felt i was only her slave. How could i be used like this?

She used to grabbed my hand tightly, feels like she never wanted to let it go. I thought we'd be last forever. I thought our love is immortal. And i cried for it.

I wrote a letter angrily with a lot of pressures around me until i didn't know what i write. When i made a dot at the end of the letter, i knew we're finished.

I want to clean my self from you.

The figure of her never wanted to leave me. When i buttoned my shirt, i felt like her hands were there helping me to do it. I turned my head with hope she was there, but she wasn't there. I had to continue my life without her, cause i knew i'm not her slave anymore. I am me.

I cleaned my desk from books she read. I looked at my flight ticket and i sighed. I felt my anger was on the top. I didn't know why. I thought maybe i could be someone new if i left this country.

I want you to leave.

I used to love her so much. I smiled so wide when i saw her came and i hugged her tightly. And i cried for those unforgettable sweet memory. My tears blocked my sight.

We used to have fun. With cheap dance that i did for her, with tangerines she put into her eyes, with biscuits i put into my eyes just to make us look pretty weird. We had created such a big laugh. But why she never realized that she needed me? What would she be able to do if she left me?

I want love doesn't exist.

Every morning i looked at your face. The prettiest face i had ever seen. When we kissed, i thought i would never leave this world. I thought i would never hate you. And i cried for it. I cried for all those lies i said.

I want her to look only at me.

The girl I had trusted so much, stomping on me. Coldly turns her back. When i saw she hurting me by cheating with the jerk at the club, i felt like she had been chewing me to pieces and spit me out carelessly. I approached her and grabbed on her hand and dragged her with me but that jerk stopped us. I felt my self about to explode. I could stand my anger any longer. I punched him but he quickly punched me and we had fight in front of her eyes. Then i knocked him down.

I want to erase her.

I asked her to come home with me once again, but she refused. I kept begging but she kept refusing. I slowly approached her with a gun on my hand. Never thought I'm doing this before. I thought i would approached her slowly to grab her hand and love her. I never thought i point this gun to her head. I used to loving her so much but now i hate her much more.

I will start my revenge.

I’d give her pain, as much as the scars I received. I’d chew her to pieces then spit her out like shit. I pulled the trigger and she died. I knew this is a sin but i wouldn't care. Life was so tragic and fast. My revenge was so sweet. I threw the flight ticket and let it flew with the wind. I'm so free now.

I know the way to clean my self from my sin.

I knew i would regret this. The gun was still on my hand. I cried a lot. I had enough with my own anger. I regretted all the things i had done to her. I wanted to take another revenge to myself. I was so tired with life. So i jumped. I let those cars crashed my body. I'm gone. I chased her to hell.

I'm done with my stories.

My body was shattered in the other side, she lived. She survived. Police got her and took her to hospital. I'm completely gone.

Life is so unfair.

I died. She lived. I'm angry. She's happy.

And i cried for it in hell.